Please reread point #1.

If 15+ years of seeking to meet God is not enough to meet God, maybe your God is not as meetable as you think.

Your comment is very frustrating because I just got done trying to tell you that me and many others GENUINELY believed and sought God but still left the faith eventually. The answer to your question is that yes my faith was genuine. It could happen to you too. Just as I predicted, you’re refusing to accept that, and I already laid out the reasons for why that is but you’re not listening.