Hey Matt, thanks for your comment. I can totally imagine it being daunting and lonely to question your faith in your position. It was a lot easier for me because I was only 21 and had moved to another town for college, and my wife at the time (I got married young) came to the same conclusions at the same time I did.
When it’s been a big part of your life all the way to middle age, that’s got to be incredibly difficult. So I admire your courage.
If you ever need someone to talk to about your process, you can shoot me an email, or head over to recoveringfromreligion.org where they have a 24/7 chat&phone line specifically created to help people who are struggling with religious transitions. They have a great index of online resources, too.